coral

August 29, 2013

Coral
Coral
Coral
Sunset

You know that moment when you fully comprehend just how tiny you are or the exact amount of milk your complexion can handle? Yep. I just had that moment. Sigh. Anyway. Hi loves! Can you believe Summer is coming to an end? It makes my heart shatter into tiny pieces inside my chest. I'm not ready to go into a depressing Winter all over again... Another sigh. Although August has definitely not been my month -- or 2013 my year altogether --, the time to enjoy the last 8 p.m. sunsets, the last days of sleeping with your bedroom window open, the last days to prance around in skimpy clothes is thankfully still here... well, until I'm finally living at home in California, where it's sunny year round. Yay! But that's another story altogether. Happy end of August, babes! Enjoy laying poolside and workout those bodies whenever you can! 

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{ Primark Dress
Parfois Wedges }

my current workout playlist

August 26, 2013

I take my iPod and iPhone everywhere I go -- whether it be the grocery store, a car ride or small errands, -- so it's only natural that I'd have it be my ally during my treadmill and bike stints. I love the boost a good song can give you, like an instant jolt of energy which helps me finish my cardio workouts in a fun way. Here's what's playing on my iPod. Check these songs out! 

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{ Katy Perry - Roar
Secret Lie - I Can Be Free
One Direction - Best Song Ever
Big Time Rush - Song For You
Pink - Blow Me (One Last Kiss)
Coldplay - Every Teardrop is a Waterfall
T.I. - Whatever You Like
Imagine Dragons - On Top of the World }

home turf

August 25, 2013





















Hello, my loves! I'm finally back home and I could not be happier about it. I stopped feeling like I'm on holiday years ago, as I feel like holidays are supposed to be fun and you're supposed to want them to never end... Alas, the general idea shouldn't be counting down the days until it's over, right? Right. Sad face. Anyhow... I'm back home to these sunsets just by my balcony and my ever so missed gym and every day workouts. On top of that, I'm studying for my driving theory exam and catching up on Orange is the New Black (go watch!). Hope you lovely babes had a wonderful holiday if that was the case, or a lovely end of August all the same! xx

don't stop believin'

August 11, 2013


As I write this on a particularly bad day, I'm envisioning the future. All that is good and happy and healthy. A place far ahead when I don't feel like crying every moment of every day, where I don't feel like things are unfair. Sometimes I get in this bad mental place, especially because it's all my life has been for the past few years {this year especially}. However, the reason for this post is to change things. To find a creative outlet set far ahead in the future, to express several goals of mine which are the needed motivation to break free from this bad chain. Wow, now wasn't that depressing and stuff? Anyway.
I have a dream. A really, really, mammoth big dream. I want to move to California. I've been pouring my all into this dream for the past 2/3 years, but it's hurtful when people {my family, mostly} are simply the least supportive people, ever. I'm talking mocking, bringing me down, telling me I'm never going to make it and this is just a dumb dream of mine. Well... it's not. It's not for many different reasons, but one of them is that I'm not a quitter. I'm just not. I face things positively. That's not to say I don't breakdown every once in a while {I mean...who doesn't?} but I'm mostly pretty positive. And I believe in myself. I truly do. I won't stop believing until I get there. And I will. It may be 2 years from now, 3 years from now... but it's going to happen. Words hurt, but the belief I have in myself drowns them out.

It is horrible when people who have left their dreams pass them by feel so much anger and regret inside of them that they have to squash other people's dreams. Not everyone, but some. It's unnecessary and mean spirited, and one of my goals is to let people unleash their dreams, no matter how big or small, and to pursue them. Even if they don't get it, they still gave it their all. You want something, you go get it. And that's all there is to it. One day, when I'm out there living my dream, I'll look back at these challenging times and smile. Not feel bitter or angry at those who didn't believe in me, but rather happy and proud of myself for having succeeded despite everyone telling me I wouldn't. That's the goal.

Personally speaking, this year has been rough. I've been positive but I've been down. I've been happy just as much as I've been sad. And little things give me solace, the thought of what's to come just as long as I work hard for it. But it also awakened me to my body, to my health, to what I must do to protect it. Turning a setback in the form of my illness, into a comeback in the form of exercise and fitness. Two weeks in and I feel amazing. Reborn. Stronger than ever. Proud of myself. Healthy. On the other side of the fear of my illness, the dread and the despair... there's the freedom that you have ONE life to live, and it's a shame to waste it on your couch doing nothing, letting your body deteriorate and die slowly and unfulfilled. CHANGE.


There's still plenty of work to do, plenty of miles to run, plenty of weights to lift, plenty of habits to change. But I'm happy to do it. I'm happy I'm in this. I'm grateful to be able to do this, to work my body into what I envision it to be, to have the right mindset to do so. I'm blessed for being able to live with my illness, to have a positive attitude that I hope will come out for others, to be ALIVE and ENGAGED in myself. It's not always easy. It's hard and I've cried myself to sleep quietly many times. But I've woken up energized and motivated just as many times. It's give and take. No one is happy always, but we have to do our best to cultivate this sense of fulfillment. So we must look out for ourselves, or no one else will.

Eat right. Workout. Hydrate your body. Hydrate your skin. Be motivated. Have the desire to change and evolve. YOU are what draws the line between feeling good about yourself or not. Respect your body and respect yourself. Believe in YOU! My dream is South California, Los Angeles, Malibu, Santa Monica... living it healthy, happy and fulfilled. Who's to know what good things are just around the corner? Be the best version of yourself that you can possibly be! Set goals, work towards them. 
It's been two weeks. The changes in myself are notorious. I'm healthier, lighter, more focused. I'm better. But I'm also realistic. There's a long way to go... but it's easier to walk that road once you've seen how far you've come rather than seeing how far you still have to go. Slow progress is progress all the same. You can do it. You are strong. You are worthy. You are ABLE! Thank you for coming along with me on my journey to California and towards a healthier life. We CAN do this, just as long as we...
Have an awesome week and I'll see you soon! xx

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